Update #7

Good evening and Welcome to Update #7!

SPRING IS HERE!!!!

AND IT IS STILL COLD ><

Really??

Ugh… anyway…

It seems I had a 7th post typed and ready after Valentine’s Day but my memory isn’t so good anymore and it seems I forgot to post it!! T_T #FAIL

Moving on....

I hope everyone’s been well since my mini disappearance. My sincere apologies. I had to take care of some appointments and apartments stuff. It also seems I desperately need a mental health break after all of that.

Then when I started to feel better, I was scared to jump back into things.

I work until I burn out, then I recover and don’t know when recovery needs to end??

I don’t know. It weird. I get scared when its time to get back into things. Like I’ve disappointed everyone, and people will be mad at me for disappearing without updates on what’s going on.

I fear failure.

And I feel like I’ve failed because I’ve burnt out.

I know its okay to need time for yourself and take time for your mental health but when I do I freak out and panic.

But I gotta pull myself together and get back on the horse!!

I’m scared and my hands are still shaking but I’ve picked up my pencil/stylus and started to sketch random things to shake off the cobwebs.

For those of you concerned, my doctor appointments did go well. It seems my memory problems, speech problems, shaking, and vision problems are all due to extreme stress and my C-PTSD. Even my cluster headaches and facial swelling. Right above my right eye seems swollen or droopy. But my whole right side seems to have drooped just a tiny bit. But that side swells a lot so I’m not sure what it is anymore.

I was prescribed something for the headaches so hopefully those help. *Fingers crossed*

It’s also an antidepressant so double yay! xD

I’m getting my schedule down so I hopefully I won’t burn out so fast again.

I’ve finished with doctors’ appointments for a little while so that frees up some time for me. Also, Spring Break is right around the corner so I’m hoping with better weather I’ll be in better spirits and get my mojo back fully!

A little good news, during my little hiatus, I was able to sketch out some Spring coloring pages. I was upset I couldn’t get out my new years and Valentine’s Day ones in time so with it being spring I thought I’d try again. I just recently finished flushing them out and will be available on my Etsy. You can also click on the Esty shop link in the header to view them. So far there only 2 designs, a bee and a ladybug, but I’m hoping to do more. *Fingers crossed*

I have gone back to sketching pages for All in the End but its slow going and hard. Some of the next pages called for things I don’t normally draw so it’s a lot of trial and error. And extreme frustration. xD But I won’t get better unless I continue to work at it. Unfortunately, I don’t have an estimated timeline on when the next page will be out, but I will post as many updates as I on my twitter.

That’s all for now! Thanks for checking out my most recent update. There will be more but probably not weekly anymore. It seems I’m having a very hard time keeping those up. So, for now updates will come every 2-4weeks.

I hope everyone has a safe and happy rest of the week ♥

See you next time in Update #8

♥

P.S. I know I was MIA here, but I was still active on my twitter. So, for future reference if my mental health dips and I disappear in my blogs, look towards my twitter!